The Winterfood Diaries

The Winterfood Diaries

Thursday, 26 April 1990

Real Real Real


Today, Amy and I are so much closer for having made love, but we’ve agreed to stay just friends.  She says she thinks Fergie and I actually look good together and doesn’t get jealous about me liking Lilith MacMillan.



This morning, we had a few more sex games together and then I went into Tech and sat talking with Lilith for ages.  Across the Common Room, Fergie smiled at me continuously.  I smiled back.  I eventually spoke with her – very briefly – but little came of it, although she told me that I’m her favourite man and she really cares about me.  Mickey came in and as she sat with him, talking, she still did a lot of smiling over at me.  I smiled back.

This evening, Lilith MacMillan came home with me and I like to think we had good fun.  We had chats and music and cuddled a bit, but nothing more. 


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Next time: ‘Glib…’

Wednesday, 25 April 1990

Making Love With Amy

‘Dancing With the Big Boys’ – David Bowie

Today, I spent ages with Fergie, attempting to revive a flagging friendship and keep us interested in each other.  It turned out to be a lovely afternoon, although it did follow a morning of sarcasm and veiled bitchery.  We had fun, I hope, and so many times I’m sure we came close to kissing, but we never did. 


This evening, Donna, Jonny, Missy, Julian, Amy and I all went to The Walks and then for some wine back at Donna’s.  Sally Watson joined us and I entertained them all with Berwin + The Situation’s new A to Zoo tape. 

‘#9 Dream’ – John Lennon

Then, as the wine took its toll, I got off with Amy (as we had pretty much planned; Amy had been given formal permission to have the night out of Plaxtole House to stay at Double D’s).

Jonny + Missy went, and Donna went to stay over at Sally’s.  Julian slept on the floor.  Amy and I undressed and went to bed together and we did all of those wonderful things one often has a yearning to do.  We had loads of sex and licking and stuff.  I loved it, even if we both found it brilliantly funny at times.

It was very special to me.


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Next time: ‘Real Real Real…’

Tuesday, 24 April 1990

What Kind of Fool

GAYBOY
FAYRE

‘Let’s Be Other People’ – The Wonder Stuff

Today, I saw Fergie and she told me that she’d just attempted to blow Mickey totally out of her life, after which I gave her my letter of (love) resignation.  I told her she need no longer carry any guilt now that she’ back down to one.

Later, we went off to talk but nothing was said.

It’s like our love has now been cordoned off.  Or perhaps it has already gone, fallen into oblivion.


The most ‘boggling’ thing about today was the afternoon, which I spent with Lilith MacMillan, at her insistence.  Nowadays she comes over to me and makes it very clear how she feels about me, but because my circumstances have changed greatly since January, I tend to find myself just underplaying my feelings for her. [Somewhere a heart is breaking – Lilith, 1992] But she told me she loves me and we hugged a little before she kissed me goodbye.  Oh, and she’d been worried that she was pregnant, but thankfully she isn’t.

‘What Kind Of Fool’ – All About Eve

This evening, I went out with Donna Davidson and Amy Neat, to The Walks for a bottle of wine.  I briefly saw Kate Lesser and told her all about recent events with her best mate, Mary-Jane.  Perhaps I felt some regret at what I’ve done…?

Back at Donna’s. Amy and I cuddled up in Donna’s bed and it felt nice and warm.

Back home, listening to ‘What Kind Of Fool’, I just cried and cried over Fergie.

I had a bath and then, in only a towel, still soaking wet, I fell asleep on my bedroom floor.


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Next time: ‘Making love with Amy…’

Monday, 23 April 1990

Lilith Returns

10pm

‘Infinity’ – Guru Josh

LAMENTABLE AND TERRIBLE DAY

But how could a day full of such badness feel also quite good?

This vague togetherness, this flimsy relationship of mine and Mary-Jane’s – hah!  I piss in its sincerity.

MARY-JANE?



I got into Tech and spoke to Astra Trellis straight away.  Been a while since I saw her, and it was lovely to chat – but as I did so, I felt a finger prod me in the back.

Who was it?

Well, I turned, expecting to see Fergie, but no, it was…

Lilith MacMillan

And she’s back in Norfolk for good.

My heart did actually thrill to see her again and she was quite obviously happy to see me.

And then Fergie came over.

So Lilith left.

Fergie and I were very ‘off’ with each other; little to say.  Shelley, Fergie’s friend, is getting married soon and all Fergie could talk about was that or how entertaining Barry was when he visited her over Easter.  I was billy chuffed.

So I went to talk with Amy Neat, which I enjoyed. 

Then DPA2 got together to discuss FRANKENSTEIN, vaguely.

After this, in the Common Room, I spoke to Lilith, at which point I’m sure Fergie was bitching us both off.  I went and sat with Fergie eventually, but it was dull, so I left her to go back and talk to Lilith.  This gave me time to tell her all my news and she told me hers.  She says she hates Nick, and she thinks she might be pregnant.  Feeling a bit bitchy herself, she grabbed me and hugged me openly in the Common Room for all to see.  Fergie gave us dagger looks.  Lilith then told me she wants to come and stay at my house one night this week.  I hope she does.  I’ve missed her.  I really have.

After Lilith left I sat and chatted to Amy at great length.

‘Cartoon Boyfriend’ – The Wonder Stuff

Later on, Donna Davidson and I had massive talks and we want to go to bed together and live in London together in the summer.  And for the rest of whenever.

Jonny’s nice and so is Missy.  Jonny + I went into town this afternoon and bumped into Fergie and Sandra, but said fuck all to them.

Back at Tech, I was at the end of my tether, so I went to The Walks with Fergie, hoping to have a much-need ‘big chat’.  And who should we bump into?  Stan, of all people!  He was on crutches, with a leg in plaster after an accident involving a human pyramid at a MISSION gig…



Anyway, I told Fergie how I felt about her and my jealousy over Barry and Mickey.  She does like Barry tonnes, but she says she also likes me and Mickey.  Well, after that, we agreed that we didn’t owe each other anything and we are now ‘free agents’.  We still touched, though.  And at tech we kissed loads, but I told her that ultimately if she wants Barry, then she must be with him and not me.  Or Mickey for that matter.  It’s bugging me, though.  But I love her and I want her to be happy.

‘Gold and Silver’ – All About Eve

Since I got home I’ve begun to have negative feelings about her; like she’s messing me about.  I should just walk out of her life; I should have done that today.  I know she wanted to do the same, but couldn’t. 

She rang tonight and I told her that sooner or later we have got to part company.  Really – and I know she agrees with this – there’s actually no point in us getting too attached if I’m leaving college in May/June.  I told her I know ho much she likes Barry and I also told her that I think she’s pissed me about and

Oh god.

I am going to release her.  Now.  In a letter.

Who do I love anyway?

I mean, it’s obvious to anyone who knows me that I have feelings for Lilith and Amy also.  Which is wrong in Fergie’s eyes, even though she has me, Barry and Mickey.

This thing with Fergie ends tomorrow.

It has to.   
 

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Next time: ‘What Kind of Fool…’

Sunday, 22 April 1990

Doctor Who: Death to Time!

LATE

‘The Hounds of Love (12-inch)’ – Kate Bush

I am home, at Blackberry Narrow.

I hate my acne.  Why does it happen?  I do wash, y’know…

But I’m home.

I rang Jonny and was sad to hear that he hadn’t been able to go to the Wenns.  I can forgive him because he had a good excuse: his brother had slashed his wrists and taken an overdose.  He’s now recovering recovering in hospital, poor bloke.

I rang Amy for a chat.  She asked me to explain my feelings for her over the phone (my letter to her hasn’t arrived yet, y’see, and she probably won’t get it till next weekend now…).  Eventually, we agreed to get together and talk soon.  She asked me about Fergie and I told her how afraid I am of losing her.

MARY-JANE FERGUSON, my heroine.  I’ll confront all this shit tomorrow.  I hope we love each other too much for any more pain.  I love you, Fergie; all my love x

Later:

‘The Supermen’ – David Bowie

I’ve been thinking about writing a Doctor Who script.  It’s my take on the final story ever.  If it’s never coming back on the telly, then it would be good to have a proper, final end.  And it ought to be a ‘Greatest Hits’ while we’re at it.

Here’s my breakdown…

DOCTOR WHO: DEATH TO TIME!

ONE

Gallifrey is attacked by a fleet of spaceships.

TWO

Ace alone in TARDIS, talking into log (like Jo in ‘Planet of the Daleks).  Explains that she and Doctor answered a distress call on a damaged starship.  The Doctor insisted that she remain in the TARDIS, but has now been gone for over 12 hours.  Suddenly, the TARDIS doors are blown in.

THREE

In the starship, the Doctor is arguing with the last of the Cybermen who are suing for peace.  They have grievances regarding his use of Nemesis – which they have retrieved, though it’s dormant and damaged - but need his help to survive.  The Doctor is refusing to help them rebuild and relocate.  The Valeyard arrives – dressed in undertaker’s clothes – and offers his assistance.  He has brought a bruised and battered Ace with him.

FOUR
In a cell, the Doctor and Ace are arguing.  She is angry with him for giving himself up for her.  He helps her escape, telling her to get into the broken TARDIS and use the recall circuit to get her back to Gallifrey where she must warn the Time Lords.

FIVE

The Valeyard assists the Cybermen with repairing the Nemesis.

SIX
Ace’s escape is discovered.  The Doctor is placed in a Cybernisation unit, to be turned into a drone Cyberman.  But the ship is attacked.  The Doctor is rescued, by unlikely allies – Ogrons.  And their masters, the Daleks!



SEVEN
TARDIS has trouble reaching Gallifrey and keeps skipping a time track (it’s trying to ‘hide’).  Ace eventually seizes control and lands on Gallifrey – but the Time Lord Capitol is devastated and crawling with Daleks.  Excavating Daleks.




EIGHT
A very ill Doctor is taken to Dalek Control on Gallifrey.  He is interrogated regarding his perceived alliance with the Cybermen.  He is also questioned about the precise locations of both the Hand of Omega and the Eye of Harmony.  Once the interrogation is over, the Dalek leader recommends that the Doctor be made into a Dalek War-Planner.

NINE
The TARDIS is in a panic, sensing the pain of both the Doctor and its planet of origin.  It takes off, leaving Ace behind and materialises within the Matrix where it locates the Master.


TEN
With the Eye and the Hand now in their grasp, the Daleks proceed with their ultimate plan: to travel back to the birth of the universe.  Here, they will detonate both power sources and create sufficient temporal power to project the entire Dalek fleet/army into every location in time and space – and attendant parallels and divergences thereof – in order to control every moment of time always and forever.

That’s about as far as I’ve got, but the rest should go something like this…

The Master and the TARDIS enlist the aid of Ace, and rescue the Doctor who formulates a plan for destroying the Daleks.  On the way, Ace is killed, and the Nemesis is used to destroy Dalek Control.  The Dalek Time Squad manages to travel back and activate the Eye and the Hand but then promptly dematerialise.  The Doctor travels back to the earliest manageable time after the formation of the universe, using his TARDIS as a bomb, jettisoning himself (and probably Susan) in one of the rooms, after arranging the removal of the control column, which devastates the Dalek Time Squad.  I’m playing with the idea that he becomes Fenric at this point, returning to destroy the Valeyard who has taken control of what’s left on Gallifrey.  The real hero, in the end, is probably the Master, who sorts out all the ‘on the ground’ stuff as the Doctor ascends to godhood, in a horrible and terrifying way.  He will die, unregenerated.  Or at least seem to die.  Presumably in a physical/mental struggle with the Valeyard.

Later:

‘Twilight of a Champion’ – The The

That letter from Larry

To all DPA 2 students

Final Term Project

Could I just clarify the following for next terms projects:

That the work will be based on Mary Shelley’s “Frankenstein”.
That you will perform on June 7th at the KLCA.
That any further dates you arrange for a local tour you will inform me (for moderator purposes) and Mr Williams.
That a visit to the Cockpit is possible (contact me please).
That you will record your contribution to the project and hand that in by 7th June to me or Mr Williams.
That a recorded register will be kept until Whitsun.
That all work will be kept safely by Mr Williams but made accessible to me and given back to you after the final visit of the moderator.
That the college will give you the necessary support or staff, resources and transport to carry out the project successfully.
That you will notify me of any change of address or employment gained, as well as Mr Williams.
That both Kenneth Farnham and Tracey Joyce will submit their ‘project’ work in as well by June 7th.

Many many thanks for your continued support, and good fortune in climbing the final hurdle, I know you can do it!

See you soon.

Larry Goodgirl

Weird to think he won’t be there anymore.


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Next time: ‘Lilith returns…’

Saturday, 21 April 1990

Fatal Attraction

A.M.

‘Ran Tan Waltz’ – Kate Bush

Going to my Dad’s for the day today. 

Home tomorrow.

I’ve enjoyed it up here, but I can’t wait to get back.

Roll on, Monday; let’s get this sorted, Fergie.  Let’s sort out what went wrong after you said you’d finish with Mickey but only if we became an ‘item’ – what happened to that little plan? 

When I got together with you in the Wenns I asked you if we were now ‘officially together’.  I now remember you saying, ‘I’m my own person now and I can do what I like’.  I clearly misinterpreted the evasiveness of your reply.  Let’s get that one sorted, too.  Once and for bastard all.

I love you, Mary-Jane, and I can only hope you love me too.

Later:

‘Duel’ – Propaganda

Saw Flash today, for perhaps the last time in a while to come.  Raquel’s giving him a lot of trouble.  He’s no longer in love, of course, but she’s obsessed to the point of fatal attraction.  She could jeopardise his future at Oxford if she continues to be as vindictive as she is being.  Poor lad was in a state today – it was a shame I had to leave him.


Spent the rest of the day with my Dad and Annie, which proved to be very enjoyable.


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Next time: ‘Doctor Who: Death to Time!’