The Winterfood Diaries

The Winterfood Diaries

Friday, 11 May 1990

Tea and Biscuits

‘Enjoy the Silence’ – Depeche Mode

Today, Lilith and I were kissing in College – but ultimately, we both admitted to each other that we were having feelings of great confusion and conflict.   You know my feelings on the subject of building a new relationship so soon after Fergie.  Case in point: ‘ENJOY THE SILENCE’ by Depeche Mode is on TV.  Brings all the memories back.

I spoke to Lili and suggested that friendship ought to be the level of relationship we maintain.  She was so upset.  She wants a relationship, and god knows I do, but I do still love Fergie a great deal so right now I really don’t know what to do with my emotions.

I mean, Fergie and I were grinning at each other in the Common Room again.

I told Lili that I don’t want me or her to be hurt as I leave College in a few weeks (which is true), and that I worry what people may think of me for saying I love Fergie so much and then going out with Lili (not strictly true, but what kind of man does that make me?).

‘The Power’ – Snap!

On top of this, I got a bit down today – ready to leave. 

I like Donna Davidson, though.  So much.  We had tea and biscuits together.  Certain female members of the group are beginning to bug us both.

Oh fuck it.  Goodnite.


[Images subject to control of individual Copyright Holders including works originated by Elton Townend Jones, but excluding any images or design attributed to ‘The Situation’ which are copyright of The Situation (see specific acknowledgements in the ‘Thanks to…’section below) / ‘Berwin Groomstool’ is an iteration of the Situation character ‘William Whicker’ and falls under joint copyright of Elton Townend Jones and Waen Shepherd / Based on true events and designed as a study of parochial British cultural and emotional life in the late 20th century, this blog is a work of fiction – cultural icons excluded, all characters and incidents featured are entirely fictional / This blog is non-profit; all video clips are used for illustrative purposes and almost always come from YouTube / No copyright infringement is intended – just trying to get things into context. Never forget: no man is an island. If you think anything I’ve used is damaging you in any way, please comment and immediate action will be taken to minimise offence / This notice was amended on 1 July 2012 and is intended to cover this and all posts on www.25yearstoolate.blogspot.com that precede it]


Next time: ‘Seven Years From Now…’

Thursday, 10 May 1990

Welcome to the Terrordome

My No.1: ‘Welcome To The Terrordome’ by Public Enemy

Today had me smiling politely – even grinning – at Fergie, from across the Common Room.

The group read through FRANKENSTEIN this afternoon.

This evening, Lilith, of course, came to stay.

The night’s been odd and is passing us by all too quickly, but this evening we have revealed to each other our attractions.  She DOES like me and wants to go out with me, so it came as no surprise when a little later we touched and caressed a great deal, ultimately kissing.  And bedtime nudity was no problem, either.

But what is our situation?


[Images subject to control of individual Copyright Holders including works originated by Elton Townend Jones, but excluding any images or design attributed to ‘The Situation’ which are copyright of The Situation (see specific acknowledgements in the ‘Thanks to…’section below) / ‘Berwin Groomstool’ is an iteration of the Situation character ‘William Whicker’ and falls under joint copyright of Elton Townend Jones and Waen Shepherd / Based on true events and designed as a study of parochial British cultural and emotional life in the late 20th century, this blog is a work of fiction – cultural icons excluded, all characters and incidents featured are entirely fictional / This blog is non-profit; all video clips are used for illustrative purposes and almost always come from YouTube / No copyright infringement is intended – just trying to get things into context. Never forget: no man is an island. If you think anything I’ve used is damaging you in any way, please comment and immediate action will be taken to minimise offence / This notice was amended on 1 July 2012 and is intended to cover this and all posts on www.25yearstoolate.blogspot.com that precede it]


Next time: ‘Tea and biscuits…’

Wednesday, 9 May 1990

Daunting

11pm

‘Unwashed and Somewhat Slightly Dazed’ – David Bowie

I’ve finished writing the Frankenstein play at last.  It looks good.  Whether it will be on stage is a different matter…


I still feel hurt about Fergie (who seems to be back with Mickey – again!).  I get withdrawal symptoms and often wish to speak with her.  We’ll never be the same again.  So things scare me in a way now…

I’d love to build a relationship with Lilith; and yes, I’d like to create a physical bond with her also, but throwing myself into another commitment feels so daunting.  Anyway, what’s to say Lili wants any such relationship?  Despite the fact that she has ‘an unquenchable, undying passion’ to be with me?

We really should talk about that.


[Images subject to control of individual Copyright Holders including works originated by Elton Townend Jones, but excluding any images or design attributed to ‘The Situation’ which are copyright of The Situation (see specific acknowledgements in the ‘Thanks to…’section below) / ‘Berwin Groomstool’ is an iteration of the Situation character ‘William Whicker’ and falls under joint copyright of Elton Townend Jones and Waen Shepherd / Based on true events and designed as a study of parochial British cultural and emotional life in the late 20th century, this blog is a work of fiction – cultural icons excluded, all characters and incidents featured are entirely fictional / This blog is non-profit; all video clips are used for illustrative purposes and almost always come from YouTube / No copyright infringement is intended – just trying to get things into context. Never forget: no man is an island. If you think anything I’ve used is damaging you in any way, please comment and immediate action will be taken to minimise offence / This notice was amended on 1 July 2012 and is intended to cover this and all posts on www.25yearstoolate.blogspot.com that precede it]


Next time: ‘Welcome to the Terrordome…’

Tuesday, 8 May 1990

Undying Passion

‘Hurting Kind’ – Robert Plant

Spent a lot of time with Lilith which is BLOODY good.  I like her an exceptionally great amount.  We touch a lot and talk a lot more openly with each other now.

Yes.  I do find her physically, emotionally and psychologically attractive.  Why shouldn’t I?

She finally told me what she hadn’t managed to say on the phone: she has ‘an unquenchable, undying passion’ to be with me.

Perhaps we should talk about it.


[Images subject to control of individual Copyright Holders including works originated by Elton Townend Jones, but excluding any images or design attributed to ‘The Situation’ which are copyright of The Situation (see specific acknowledgements in the ‘Thanks to…’section below) / ‘Berwin Groomstool’ is an iteration of the Situation character ‘William Whicker’ and falls under joint copyright of Elton Townend Jones and Waen Shepherd / Based on true events and designed as a study of parochial British cultural and emotional life in the late 20th century, this blog is a work of fiction – cultural icons excluded, all characters and incidents featured are entirely fictional / This blog is non-profit; all video clips are used for illustrative purposes and almost always come from YouTube / No copyright infringement is intended – just trying to get things into context. Never forget: no man is an island. If you think anything I’ve used is damaging you in any way, please comment and immediate action will be taken to minimise offence / This notice was amended on 1 July 2012 and is intended to cover this and all posts on www.25yearstoolate.blogspot.com that precede it]


Next time: ‘Daunting…’

Monday, 7 May 1990

Unquenchable

4.30pm

‘Radio Ass Kiss’ – The Wonder Stuff

I’m writing to express my love for DOCTOR WHO



It’s sexy.



Later:

9pm

‘Mantra’ – S’Xpress

Lilith rang earlier and we chatted non-stop for ages.  She’s forgotten what it was she had to tell me.  She’s fed up with her friends hating me, though.  She displays jealous characteristics whenever I mention Fergie and she said she kept wanting to say things to me, but found that she couldn’t – or wouldn’t.  I think the closest we got was when she said she wants to stay over again; she said she had ‘an unquenchable…’ and then broke off as someone came into the room she was calling from.  I’ve often wondered if she’s attracted to me.  I think she possibly is.


[Images subject to control of individual Copyright Holders including works originated by Elton Townend Jones, but excluding any images or design attributed to ‘The Situation’ which are copyright of The Situation (see specific acknowledgements in the ‘Thanks to…’section below) / ‘Berwin Groomstool’ is an iteration of the Situation character ‘William Whicker’ and falls under joint copyright of Elton Townend Jones and Waen Shepherd / Based on true events and designed as a study of parochial British cultural and emotional life in the late 20th century, this blog is a work of fiction – cultural icons excluded, all characters and incidents featured are entirely fictional / This blog is non-profit; all video clips are used for illustrative purposes and almost always come from YouTube / No copyright infringement is intended – just trying to get things into context. Never forget: no man is an island. If you think anything I’ve used is damaging you in any way, please comment and immediate action will be taken to minimise offence / This notice was amended on 1 July 2012 and is intended to cover this and all posts on www.25yearstoolate.blogspot.com that precede it]


Next time: ‘Undying passion…’

Sunday, 6 May 1990

A Brief Question of Lilith

‘An Occasional Dream’ – David Bowie

Question:  what important and interesting thing is Lilith going to tell me on Tuesday?


[Images subject to control of individual Copyright Holders including works originated by Elton Townend Jones, but excluding any images or design attributed to ‘The Situation’ which are copyright of The Situation (see specific acknowledgements in the ‘Thanks to…’section below) / ‘Berwin Groomstool’ is an iteration of the Situation character ‘William Whicker’ and falls under joint copyright of Elton Townend Jones and Waen Shepherd / Based on true events and designed as a study of parochial British cultural and emotional life in the late 20th century, this blog is a work of fiction – cultural icons excluded, all characters and incidents featured are entirely fictional / This blog is non-profit; all video clips are used for illustrative purposes and almost always come from YouTube / No copyright infringement is intended – just trying to get things into context. Never forget: no man is an island. If you think anything I’ve used is damaging you in any way, please comment and immediate action will be taken to minimise offence / This notice was amended on 1 July 2012 and is intended to cover this and all posts on www.25yearstoolate.blogspot.com that precede it]


Next time: ‘Unquenchable…’

Saturday, 5 May 1990

Frankenstein On Tour

7pm

‘Give Give Give Me More More More’ – The Wonder Stuff

The heat and the sun have been beautiful.  A week of sunbathing and having fun.



FRANKENSTEIN is now on the move, and we are touring in June, but under the College name (as they’re backing it).  Which is not what I’d desired.  I was hoping it would just be US, independent and under our name – our first professional engagement; our first job – but no one other than me else seems to be thinking too hard about it.  Apart from Daniel Abbott, but I don’t think even he’s that bothered about the ‘independent’ angle.  Anyway, it’s going to be good.  I have faith in it.

I’m finishing the script right now.


[Images subject to control of individual Copyright Holders including works originated by Elton Townend Jones, but excluding any images or design attributed to ‘The Situation’ which are copyright of The Situation (see specific acknowledgements in the ‘Thanks to…’section below) / ‘Berwin Groomstool’ is an iteration of the Situation character ‘William Whicker’ and falls under joint copyright of Elton Townend Jones and Waen Shepherd / Based on true events and designed as a study of parochial British cultural and emotional life in the late 20th century, this blog is a work of fiction – cultural icons excluded, all characters and incidents featured are entirely fictional / This blog is non-profit; all video clips are used for illustrative purposes and almost always come from YouTube / No copyright infringement is intended – just trying to get things into context. Never forget: no man is an island. If you think anything I’ve used is damaging you in any way, please comment and immediate action will be taken to minimise offence / This notice was amended on 1 July 2012 and is intended to cover this and all posts on www.25yearstoolate.blogspot.com that precede it]


Next time: ‘A Lilith Question…’

Friday, 4 May 1990

Crazyhead

‘Ignore the Machine (Special Electrode Mix)’ – Alien Sex Fiend

Lilith and I were still hugging and caressing on the way to College this morning.

As for Fergie, I still love her. 


I saw her today and I was being good-natured, but she just went into her shtick of telling me it’s all my fault that things are the way they are, and that I (apparently) do my best to be nasty to her and be her enemy.  I retorted that that was her role in all of this, but she wouldn’t have any of it and continued to put me down, so I said ‘Goodbye’ and went whilst she was in the middle of her bullshit.

I do love her, though.


Tonight, I went to LA’s with Gemma Winchester, Una Baker and Caroline Clifford.  I saw Kat and Willock there, too.  We were all there to see CRAZYHEAD, who were great. 



They were supported by CHROME MOLLY (who were okay, I suppose) and the excellent King’s Lynn band LOST MARBLES.

I had a great time and really enjoyed it, even if I am deaf now. 

Plans for the weekend ahead?  Finishing the script of FRANKENSTEIN.


[Images subject to control of individual Copyright Holders including works originated by Elton Townend Jones, but excluding any images or design attributed to ‘The Situation’ which are copyright of The Situation (see specific acknowledgements in the ‘Thanks to…’section below) / ‘Berwin Groomstool’ is an iteration of the Situation character ‘William Whicker’ and falls under joint copyright of Elton Townend Jones and Waen Shepherd / Based on true events and designed as a study of parochial British cultural and emotional life in the late 20th century, this blog is a work of fiction – cultural icons excluded, all characters and incidents featured are entirely fictional / This blog is non-profit; all video clips are used for illustrative purposes and almost always come from YouTube / No copyright infringement is intended – just trying to get things into context. Never forget: no man is an island. If you think anything I’ve used is damaging you in any way, please comment and immediate action will be taken to minimise offence / This notice was amended on 1 July 2012 and is intended to cover this and all posts on www.25yearstoolate.blogspot.com that precede it]


Next time: ‘Frankenstein tour…’

Thursday, 3 May 1990

Quite Nice

8pm

‘From Out of Nowhere’ – Faith No More

PICTURE, IF YOU WILL: A ROOM; A HEAT AND AN INTENSE LACK OF OXYGEN.  CONVERSATION NOW DEFUNCT.  ‘ALL ALONE.’  NOT QUITE.  THE YOUNG MAN IS NOT TOO TALL, HAIR A DIRTY BLOND; HE WEARS PURPLE AND BLACK (UGH!  CLICHÉ!)  THE YOUNG WOMAN IS BLIND AND CLUMSY ACCORDING TO CERTAIN DIARIES, BUT QUITE NICE (ACTUALLY!) IN REAL LIFE.  YES, WE’LL LEAVE IT AT ‘QUITE NICE’ FOR NOW; THE IMPLICATIONS OF ANY MORE ELABORATE ADMISSIONS MIGHT PROVE TO BE a) DAMAGING or b) ENLIGHTENING (AND EXCLUSIVE!).  MYSTERY!

RITCHERD J. WINTERFOOD APPROACHES 20 YEARS OF EXISTENCE.  LILITH MACMILLAN APPROACHES 17.  IT IS MAY.  SHE IS MAKING GURGLING NOISES SOMEWHERE BETWEEN HER WINDPIPE AND HER STOMACH.  HE IS SUNBURNT AND RESEMBLES A RATHER LARGE BEETROOT.  THIS IS 1990.  HELLO AGAIN.

Later:


Tonight, Lilith came over and it was good to have her here.  In the starlit darkness of my bedroom, with the music and the heat.  She lay in her thin dress, revealing her back and arms, looking hot and radiant.  I was boiling, due to a day spent getting sunburnt at Blue Water, but Lili and I hugged and caressed.


[Images subject to control of individual Copyright Holders including works originated by Elton Townend Jones, but excluding any images or design attributed to ‘The Situation’ which are copyright of The Situation (see specific acknowledgements in the ‘Thanks to…’section below) / ‘Berwin Groomstool’ is an iteration of the Situation character ‘William Whicker’ and falls under joint copyright of Elton Townend Jones and Waen Shepherd / Based on true events and designed as a study of parochial British cultural and emotional life in the late 20th century, this blog is a work of fiction – cultural icons excluded, all characters and incidents featured are entirely fictional / This blog is non-profit; all video clips are used for illustrative purposes and almost always come from YouTube / No copyright infringement is intended – just trying to get things into context. Never forget: no man is an island. If you think anything I’ve used is damaging you in any way, please comment and immediate action will be taken to minimise offence / This notice was amended on 1 July 2012 and is intended to cover this and all posts on www.25yearstoolate.blogspot.com that precede it]


Next time: ‘Crazyhead…’

Wednesday, 2 May 1990

Always Crashing In the Same Car

’20 Seconds To Comply’ – Silver Bullet

Today I talked with Fergie very briefly and all she could do was be bitchy and defensive.  It’s also encouraging to know that she’s turned Kate Lesser against me.  Kate had a go at me because Jonny – not me, please note – had made a ‘remark’ about Mickey crashing his mum’s car into the wall at Castle Rising.

I’ll never live up to my vow of forgetting Mary-Jane Ferguson.  Stupid thing to do, really.  I’ll never manage it.  It’s just that she makes it seem like it’s my fault that we are now ‘distant’.

On top of this, Lilith MacMillan’s friends, Mason and Ian (and others!) all hate me.  Fucking kids.  Grow up, babies!  I mention this not because it bothers me (it doesn’t; they’re all toss!), but just to set the scene of my life right now.  Colourful, eh?

Fergie’s been giving poor Lilith bitchy looks, too; so Abby’s been giving them to Fergie in defence of Lilith – retaliation – which amuses me.


[Images subject to control of individual Copyright Holders including works originated by Elton Townend Jones, but excluding any images or design attributed to ‘The Situation’ which are copyright of The Situation (see specific acknowledgements in the ‘Thanks to…’section below) / ‘Berwin Groomstool’ is an iteration of the Situation character ‘William Whicker’ and falls under joint copyright of Elton Townend Jones and Waen Shepherd / Based on true events and designed as a study of parochial British cultural and emotional life in the late 20th century, this blog is a work of fiction – cultural icons excluded, all characters and incidents featured are entirely fictional / This blog is non-profit; all video clips are used for illustrative purposes and almost always come from YouTube / No copyright infringement is intended – just trying to get things into context. Never forget: no man is an island. If you think anything I’ve used is damaging you in any way, please comment and immediate action will be taken to minimise offence / This notice was amended on 1 July 2012 and is intended to cover this and all posts on www.25yearstoolate.blogspot.com that precede it]


Next time: ‘Quite Nice…’

Tuesday, 1 May 1990

Swings and Stars

‘Mantra For A State Of Mind (Club Vocal)’ – S’Express

“KISS MY EGO”

kiss my ego

DNA
Soul
Baby

PURPLE HAZE…

[HERE’S A MESSAGE FROM 5 YEARS HENCE: WHAT R THE BEST NUMBERS TO CHOOSE IN THE NATIONAL LOTTERY? – Ritcherd xxx]

Switch my soul to AJAX…

Revolver…

[I WILL BELONG TO LILITH ONE DAY.  ONE DAY.  – Future Ritcherd]

I’M FREE TO DO WHAT I WANT (EXCEPT I’M NOT…)

F.A.B, Scott!

‘Barry D Next To Cleanliness’ – Jesus Jones

Put a live chicken in your underwear

CRISIS

DANCING DAYS ARE HERE AGAIN

[hello, I’m Ritcherd 1997 and life is still, but moving…]

2000AD

…MIRANDA wasp…



WE LOVE
BETTY BOO
JUST DOIN’ THE DO!

[SORRY ABOUT 1991, DONNA D, love Ritcherd ’91 xxx]



[COMING SOON

CRAP IDLY AS:
Ritcherd reminisces over a spoilt past…

SING SONGS IF:
Flash comes to stay!

DO THE DO WHEN:
Ritcherd and Donna go to London!

- Future Ritcherd xxx]

Later:

‘She Moves Through The Fair’ – All About Eve

Today, Jonny, Missy, Amy and I have been to Blue Water (sunbathing), then Castle Rising, and then the Docks (to make the most of the sunny evening).  Amy (who sunbathes topless and it’s pretty gorgeous) and I ‘got off’ with each other, but she started being depressed at having no real friends to share her deepest feelings with.  I felt sorry for her, but I do wonder.  Sometimes it feels like that’s her own fault, the way she seems to take people for granted.

Later, she and I went to The Walks and sat on the swings, where we watched the stars.  As we did, I made a vow to myself that I will forget Mary-Jane Ferguson and move on. 


[Images subject to control of individual Copyright Holders including works originated by Elton Townend Jones, but excluding any images or design attributed to ‘The Situation’ which are copyright of The Situation (see specific acknowledgements in the ‘Thanks to…’section below) / ‘Berwin Groomstool’ is an iteration of the Situation character ‘William Whicker’ and falls under joint copyright of Elton Townend Jones and Waen Shepherd / Based on true events and designed as a study of parochial British cultural and emotional life in the late 20th century, this blog is a work of fiction – cultural icons excluded, all characters and incidents featured are entirely fictional / This blog is non-profit; all video clips are used for illustrative purposes and almost always come from YouTube / No copyright infringement is intended – just trying to get things into context. Never forget: no man is an island. If you think anything I’ve used is damaging you in any way, please comment and immediate action will be taken to minimise offence / This notice was amended on 1 July 2012 and is intended to cover this and all posts on www.25yearstoolate.blogspot.com that precede it]


Next time: ‘Always Crashing In The Same Car…’